April 5, 2012
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I had a whole bunch of mail at T's house. He brought it to me tonight and stayed for awhile. I made BLT's and then we went for a walk. I miss him. I cried when he left. After he got out of the parking lot of course, but still.. I cried all the same. It makes me sad that we aren't together anymore because we get along so well and there are so many things that are really good and right. The problem is all the things that just aren't. I wish that things could be different. Sometimes I want to call him and just ask him why we can't work things out. Why he can't be more interested or involved in the things that are so important to me, and tell him that I'll give in on some things that he wants me to shutup about. But then...what would be the point? Things weren't happening before that made either of us happy-we couldn't go through with getting married then...why would that be different now when neither of us has really changed? It is a tough situation. Most the time I'm fine, but sometimes I just wonder.
I am totally loving the last Stephanie Plum, which I am currently reading. It is Explosive Eighteen. Love it. I'm going to finish it tonight and then take it to work to loan to my friend. She has listened to all the others on CD from the library going to & from work. Since this current one isn't available, she is going to read it manually. hahah.
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it takes a lot of courage and strength to do what you're doing. And you're right, people don't get more involved after they're married, they get lazier. That's tough. I feel badly that you're hurting:(
Well, you never know. If someone had told me 22 years ago I would be remarrying my then ex I would have told them they were crazy. But he DID change and here we are.
Did you fill out a change of address card for your mail? You can do it online now.
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